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31 December 2006, 12/31/2006 02:31:00 AM

I'm horribly TIRED!!!

I'm HORRIBLY TIRED!

I'm TIRED ! I'm TIRED! I'm TIRED! I'm really very exhausted.

Have you have any idea how tired of life am i?
Why can't you just let me stop thinking.
Am i not good enough for you?
Is it some kind of retribution?

I try so hard to not irritate you.
I dont even dare to bother you much.
I living in fear now really. Cant you understand?
I learnt to control.
I withdrew so much.
I can no longer hide but i just want to show.

Have your heart changed within just weeks.
I dont know why and believe you will treat me this way.
Fooling me all the while ?
Making my life miserable is all your wish?

I know i may be thinkig too much.
Do you think i want to think so much?
Have you wonder how much stress i have taken up?
Have u noticed how exhausted it can be?

I'm tired of waiting for your calls.
I'm tired of waiting for your replies.
I'm tired of the anticipation every now and then. No more energy really!
I'm tired of waiting for everything.

Cant give me the attention you gave me in the past?
Why be so cruel to me?
I never knew tt.
Do you have someon else? huh? huh?

I'm going to leave it as it is now.
Everything is really up to you now.
All i know is i'm really tired for anything and,
I'm really very unhappy.

LIFE GOES ON!!!! LIFE REALLY HAVE TO CONTINUE!!!

19 December 2006, 12/19/2006 02:22:00 PM

Projects Projects ,still Projects

Projects Projects ,still Projects

I have finally break free from some confusions that have long yet been able to get out from. At least i am lazing happily at home now. At least no ADDITIONAL dilemma i need to handle.

Christmas Christmas , White Christmas.... and who says Christmas has to be WHITE? Well, i just can't wait for Christmas to be here.

Is a little late to blog about last Saturday meeting my secondary gang. Whoeee... It has been very long since we last go out as a group. A group = Emma, Sean, SGH, Marcus and Me. Caught Eragon but i felt that it wasnt anything out of the norm. When i watch the trailer for Eragon, it somehow bring my memory back to watching Harry Potter - The Order of Phoenix and Narnia - the lion with wings on. Well, the whole story is about this FEMALE dragon is looking for a suitable rider - Eragon to **work** , fight and fly together.

Well, i rated the movie 3 out of 5 stars. The dragon was formed with great details and intricately. I am quite okay with the movie . At least it isn't a bad movie to watch. But is not those die die must watch movie.

Christmas presents shopping. Done! I always hated Christmas Gift shopping because i can never find anything as a perfect gift for different people. Why is that so . If you go to town all you see is Christmas Decor more than gift. The worst part of shopping is to queue at cashier counter and gift rap counter.

Holiday has just began. No fun because Holiday= more projects to complete. I have so many individual projects that i have yet began on any. I'm so in the mood to slack now. I'm seriously gonna get down to last minute work again. Last minute work is usually better than the work you do days before submission.

My currently heavily work on the LMS ( life management skills ) project. The topic is " war and peace". My project's war is about this girl caught leukemia and the hardship she is going through. The little voice in her that always made her think of suiciding. Her mother always financially and work burdened. The project special artwork is Newspaper. It is more of a pictorial article than a heavily text article. Have been taking fun shoots too.

10 December 2006, 12/10/2006 01:04:00 PM

Desperate for PEACE!

Roy Desperately needs PEACE!

Finally decided to add a post to this almost deadful blog. I am so moody and restless now. SHIT life. Had so much quarrel with "people". I so need a peacful environment that i can shut everything off my mind and peacefully sleep. I have been chilling out till pass midnight the past weeks. Felt so horrible, just like the feeling everytime after puking. All the shit stuck in you and when it overloaded your stomach everything just burst out.

They have no idea whats life. Neither do they bother how bad am i feeling. All they care about is to put myself into a "NO LIFE" zone and expect people to live with it. There are so many confusion in me. I have no idea how to put them into words or even to just describe the feeling that i have been endauring.

Here comes a day, starting it with quarrels and shoutings aross rooms. I am out of breath and felt so much wordless every time i was being shoot back at. Can't some understanding to be shown in an correct way from them. I am almost on verge of giving up everything. Everything which includes studies.

I am so exhausted. In fact, emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted. I dont even know how many cans of red bull can i force it in myself to regain my activeness ever again. I felt so dead now. Never felt like this before.

I know this post is diffcult to understand for many you becos i didnt show the full picture of it. You can read it and ask me. All i know is i want to rest. Even how much i want to rest i cant, common test commencing tomorrow. Pray hard and cross fingers that i do well in them. If no, more naggings to tolerate for the rest of my life.

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