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06 September 2008, 9/06/2008 01:47:00 PM

everything losses it's meaning

everything loses it's meaning

i just had an absolute intense conversation with my brother just now about my attitude towards my family these days. it almost got me to the verge of breaking down, that intense. so, i was told i have been very impatient with them even in a slightest aggravated conversation . obviously, i denied and defended for myself.

later, my thoughts just ran mad after the verbal fight with him. I just had a thought on why am i reacting so impatiently to them. like, what else more can i ask from my family who has been the best prototype. although, I always bare some resentments of my family. However, deeply I love my family more than anything else. Not because blood is thicker than water, but it's the heart to heart development between us since i was born.

when i had that conversation with my elder brother, i was telling myself inside, they know nuts about what i have been going through but all they know is how to pick on my attitude. later, i got really nervous, but still i stare straight into my brother's eye when he talks. it always seem as thought whatever they tell me is right and i'm wrong. ( i know its a kiddish thought but it always seems like it ) In another sense, I totally have no say in this family.

they claimed to have provided me the best of what they can give but in actual fact its all material possession which content me on the surface. they always claimed i don't listen to them but since when have they ever listen to me. whatever, i say to them is just gibberish and nonsensical. I'm only thankful that they are supportive of what i do and i always proudly relate it to all my friends . however, is that it about in a family? Being supportive and provide you with what you want?

deep in actual fact, i'm the only one always listen to them and they will never notice it. In every human race, we only notice the bad of someone and never the good. i forgive them for that because i practise the same sort. but, i really do hope that they realise whatever bad i have done is also what they have been doing too.

i have hidden so much from them too and i'm pretty guilty of that. Something are ment to be keep kept only to myself. I'm very sure that they have been keeping things from me too.

well, i can lose anything but i can never lose my family. i just can't.

and be shocking for VMA 2008,
britney

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