I cant decide

I cant decide who I want to be. I find it really difficult to please my ownself, and I dont exactly need any re-enforced reminder to that.

Just as i thought i could take off to a better place , un-proudly , once again, emotionally challenged. There is so many things i want to tell people but there's always this annoying limitation to it.

I trust that i could handle most of the thing myself but recently I realized I'm really handicapped when it comes to dealing with emotions. Emotionally imbalance. not to mention, its almost unbearable most of the time. i'm almost falling apart these few days. I'm seriously dread by all these stuffs and those thoughts which are really crazy.

i have come to a point that i;m starting to grow sensitive. wait, isnt anyone not sensitive? but i can assure that me being sensitive its all reasonable. I really cant decide.REALLY! i wish that now, i have billions of ears listening to me rant and not comment about it.

so, i raised this question to myself. Am i ready and mature enough to handle it? speaking of maturity, i never believe that anyone bears a mature demeanor. its all those crazy thoughts in you that makes you imperfect and childish. isnt it?

let it be, let it flow.

but i really do care.